Sunday, May 31, 2020

Move on tak semudah diucap

Dear awk,

Almost 9 years.

Berapa banyak kali saya dh cuba untuk move on.mengelak dari pandangan mata awk.tp setiap kali sy cuba menjauh,sy rasakan awk cuba mendekat.

Sampai satu masa sy penat tuk terus mencuba melupakan.sy ikot rasa hati.mana yg blh mengembirakan sy..sy teruskan walau ada prasaan salah dlm diri.

Tapi hal ni jadi makin xbtl.sy selfish.hanya kisah tentang perasaan sendiri.kadang kala sy terasa hati ni terlalu rumit untuk sy sendiri kawal.

Betul lah tak semua apa yang kita nak walau ada depan mata tu kita akan dapat.byk kali sy seolah tertanya kenapa bukan kita?pedih rasa di hati dengan prasaan ni.

Sy nak sgt bila sy pandang awk, awk xrespon and tawar segala rasa dihati ni agar mudah utk sy.

Rumitnya sy rasa skrng.

Setiap hal yg kita inginkan dlm hidup kita xsemuanya akan dapat. Sy nak hidup tanpa beban dihati. Sy masih tetap terus berusaha.. Jauhi saya utk kita.

Umur sy dah banyak...

Sunday, May 17, 2020

I usually write when i feel sad

Its almost 2am.i dont feel want to sleep.yes my eyes are sleepy but im not sleepy yet.i bored.

During MCO, what i did?

Sleep during night only
Cook viral thing
Eat until fat
Working at home
Painting toilet and 2nd room
Shopping at shoppee and lazada
Assemble tv cabinet
Install curtain whole house
Planting bayam,kari and pokok hiasan
Cleaning my house

Then repeat again and again

I really2 tak suka these things

Watching movie or any drama except tv only
Playing game
Eat cake



Im all alone after my sister went back to kampung on 10th May.

Im happy,sad,lonely,stress and feel normal too.

I dont speak with someone else for 3 days..4 weeks to go..

I miss my father.but i do nothing.

Hah apa nk buat lagi?