Its not about my wedding day.its not my salary day.its not about my birthday.its not about raya too...im counting here to go back to my permanent office!
I feel so 'nothing' here.went there, going there.follow team.meet everyone who i really2 dun even know.asked if there any job to join..it is soooo PATHETIC!
I want my own position...i'm boring and sometimes not confortable with this 'Job Attachment'.Yes they sending me here to expose me with the new working enviroment at operation site as an engineer.its very2 good since i have been exposed with the job that i'm audited last time.
But! this is not my current position.this is not my place.i'm hanging here.just follow whichever team i wanted.i need to be shameless by asking everyone where are the ongoing site for me to join.
I pretend to get close
I pretend to smile
I pretend to show my interest on their job
I pretend by saying that i'm willing to follow them
I pretend i like to work on weekend
I pretend i like to work at nite
Yes,I'm Pretending!
I put all my effort to join them
I worked at nite
I worked on weekend
I worked with mostly guys
I tried to understand what they are doing
I went to site during fasting (Panas + dahaga gileerr)
Yes,i'm almost tired!
12 working days , 2 weekends to go!
I'm not saying that i hate this Job Attachment...but i need my real job actually.Wherever i go,i do its depends on me to handle and decide.So many thing to worry.eventhough im free here...no one care where i go...what im doing..but,this is not my place.i need my real position.
Ok,actually this is not so bad compared to my real job with my moody manager....hehehe...but mybe i just..miss my office...i miss my friend..i miss my table..i miss my heels...i miss my kurung...i just miss my past 3 years life style.
Thats all maybe..
i think my grammar is soooo terrible...so go die who care!hahaha
